Monday, December 23, 2013

A Quick Chat Before the Holiday Madness

Hi guys! I wanted to make sure I took a moment to blog at least one more time before Xmas arrives. I know that I am going to be super busy snuggling with this precious baby:

Hanging out with these two troublemakers:

Running with my two favorite running buddies:

Making sure this lady gets well and learns to relax:

 Catching up with my two favorite Floridians:

And most importantly, trying to not freeze my ass off!!!!!

Wed Dec 25
Don't let that friendly looking sunshine fool you! There is nothing Sunny and warm about a high of 40 degrees. I literally might die! No joke! I have already double checked my Last Will and Testament, cleared the history on my computer and prepared for the worst. I have also attempted to take preventative measures by packing ALL of my clothing and I plan to wear at least three layers at all times. If I happen to run into you over the holidays and you notice that I have put on weight, please bear in mind that I am probably wearing at least three pairs of pants, seven shirts, a coat and multiple pairs of panties. Hey, a girl has got to do what a girl has got to do!!!
With all of that being said, I would like to wish each and every one of you a very, very happy holiday! It means so much to me that you take the time to read my blog and listen to me ramble on about all sorts of nonsense. I am truly blessed and so extremely grateful to be living this precious life. Merry Xmas!!!
(That last picture is for you Hump Day friend!!! Shh! Miss your face and your amazing advice!)

Thursday, December 19, 2013

The Truth About the Holidays

As much as I want to be someone who loves Christmas and looks forward to the holidays, I have to admit that this time of year is really just not my favorite. I'm not sure if it is due to high expectations, the impending disappointment when those expectations are not met, the cold weather, the difficulty of a family that has a hard time getting along or the financial burden of the holiday season but for the past few years I have found myself simply trying to survive the holidays rather than celebrating. I am not intentionally trying to be a Grinch with a heart that is two sizes too small but the magic of Christmas has completely disappeared. Is it wrong that I wish I could skip the holidays and instead spend a week laying on a warm, tropical beach? Am I the only one who feels this way? Is anyone else just absolutely exhausted by the songs, shopping, travel and parties?

While I was running last night, I was thinking a lot about my frustration with this season and trying to figure out why I couldn't shake my bad attitude. It is super annoying to realize that your behavior is stupid while feeling helpless to change it. I tried listening to Christmas music on the drive home in the hopes that something would click and I even detoured through a neighborhood filled with Christmas lights but I still felt absolutely jaded by the time I finally arrived home. As I was sorting through my mail, I came across a large envelope with an address that I didn't recognize right away. The package didn't appear to be a bill and as I opened it, I realized that it contained the magic of Christmas.

Knowing the struggles that Timmy goes through on a daily basis and the difficulties that he will have to endure in the future, makes me wonder how he is able to keep that precious smile on his face. (Check out this post for Timmy's story.) I swear, that kid teaches me something new every day and makes me want to be a better person. I haven't become Santa's favorite elf overnight and I am still dreading the drama that surrounds my family at Christmas time but I actually found myself humming Jingle Bells on my run this morning and I just might be wearing red and green today.

(Please consider taking a moment to visit my Children's Tumor Foundation Sponsorship Page and make a donation in Timmy's honor. I mean really, how can you resist that smile?!?)

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Random Thoughts and Things I Think You Should Know

So this is the post where I simply list a few quick things that are of interest to me because my brain is tired and I am lacking creativity. Just keeping it real.

1.) Radishes - okay, I have had radishes plenty of times but recently I've discovered a new found love for them. Maybe I am just tired of the same old boring stuff that I always eat but I have become a  total radish loving freak...and because I am a dork, I read up on the health benefits of radishes and discovered that they are a very good source of anti-oxidants, electrolytes, minerals, vitamins and dietary fiber. Nothing wrong with that!

2.) Today is December 17th and I have still not started my Xmas shopping or even thought about starting. Does this make me a cold hearted Grinch or just your run of the mill procrastinator?

3.) Last night, on my way home from the gym, the gas light in my car came on so I quickly pulled over to fill up my gas tank. As I was standing at the pump, shivering in my sweaty t-shirt and running tights, a guy pulled up next to me in a Porsche, rolled down his window, handed me a huge unwrapped (yet still warm) bacon cheeseburger, smiled and drove away. To say I was confused would be a major understatement! I'm still shaking my head at the whole thing. I just don't understand what happened there. Perhaps, I looked hungry? People are weird.

4.) I can't really explain why (and I am completely embarrassed to admit) that I am absolutely loving Do What U Want by Lady Gaga and R. Kelly. I really can't stand Lady Gaga and R. Kelly makes me want to throw up. In my mind, I hate that song but then it comes on the radio and before I realize what is happening I'm totally having a dance party of one and singing at the top of my lungs. There is something seriously wrong with me! Let's hope I grow out of this quickly!

5.) In case you missed my last few posts, please take a moment to check out my post about Timmy - My Ironman Hero. and consider donating a few dollar bills to the Children's Tumor Foundation. All donations are tax deductible and really help to change the lives of so many precious children.

6.) Over the weekend, I went to see The Book Thief and it was absolutely amazing! I usually have such a hard time sitting through an entire movie but this story completely captured my attention and my heart. Do yourself a favor and check it out but make sure you bring some tissues because you just may shed a tear or two.

7.) There are just two short weeks left in 2013 and I find that really hard to believe. This year has flown by and left me scratching my head at where the time went. I have to admit, I am sort of ready for 2013 to be over because I just have this crazy feeling that 2014 is going to be absolutely amazing. I am planning on starting the year off at the Polar Plunge on Folly Beach and have already picked out my official New Year's bikini for the plunge and the flannel pants and wool socks that I will be wearing for the rest of the day! If you are looking for an awesome way to celebrate the New Year, consider joining me for the Polar Plunge! I guarantee that you will have an amazing time!
Doesn't that water just look extremely inviting?!? 
8.) Finally, I can't let the holiday season pass without a little bit of love for my favorite Xmas movie.

It just never gets old!

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Meet Timmy - My Ironman Hero

A couple of weeks ago, I shared part of the reason why I am participating in Ironman Florida 2014 in this post. However, that was only part of the story. I’m taking on a challenge with the Children’s Tumor Foundation by partnering with the NF Endurance Team. Neurofibromatosis (NF) causes tumors to grow on nerves throughout the body and can lead to blindness, bone abnormalities, cancer, deafness, disfigurement, learning disabilities, and excruciating and disabling pain. NF is under-recognized and under diagnosed.  The Children’s Tumor Foundation funds critical research to find treatments for NF.
As part of my partnership with the NF Endurance team, I have the had the privilege to meet Timmy, a child who is living with NF and who has become both my inspiration and my Ironman hero.

I want to share with you a little bit of Timmy's story through an email that I received from his mom:

"Timmy is 4 years old. He was diagnosed with Neurofibromatosis (NF1) when he was a couple months old. Timmy had his first MRI (which is done under general anesthesia) when he turned a year old. He was also diagnosed with scoliosis when he was a year old. Shortly after he turned two, Timmy was diagnosed with an optic glioma (brain tumor that grows from within the optic nerve). The tumor went from non-existent to completely filling the space between his orbit and brain within a year. He lost almost all vision in his left eye. Timmy had a broviac (central line used for chemotherapy) surgically placed in his chest and immediately started chemotherapy. Timmy went through a year and a half of weekly chemo to treat the optic glioma. During this time, we found out that he had another tumor developing in his right eye. Timmy also had to start wearing a patch (over his right eye) four hours a day (to try to force his left eye to work and regain some vision). He will continue to wear a patch for a few more years.

In the midst of his chemo to treat his optic gliomas, Timmy's scoliosis went from mild to severe. He was fitted with a scoliosis brace and wears it 23 hours a day. Correcting his scoliosis will be a process. He will have to have major surgery to place rods to straighten his spine. This surgery will be followed by more surgery every 6 months, to lengthen the rods, until he is fully grown. When he is fully grown, his spine will have to be fused to prevent his spine from returning to it's curved state. He continues to wear his brace in order to (hopefully) put off surgery for a few more years. He goes to physical therapy (and does daily exercises) to help him develop better balance and coordination.

During the past year, Timmy developed a new tumor in his brain stem and some smaller bright spots in his brain. The neurosurgeons are carefully monitoring these areas through quarterly MRIs. Timmy has had 12 MRIs so far. Timmy also went through spinal cord surgery in October of this year to release his tethered spinal cord. Sometimes it feels like we are constantly at the doctors office or the hospital for something. Timmy is pretty tired of going under anesthesia. NF does not run in our family. Timmy just ended up being one of the 40% of cases that spontaneously develop.

Despite everything Timmy has been through, he continues to be an enthusiastic, sweet and funny little man.  He thinks life is great!  He loves to talk to people and makes friends with people everywhere we go. I feel so lucky to have him as my kid. NF has been overwhelming to say the least, but seeing all The Children's Tumor Foundation does and the new research that is developing keeps us hopeful.  Thank you again for choosing to race for the NF Endurance Team.  You are making a difference!"

Does that face and his story not just totally melt your heart?!? I have been through some hard stuff in my life but nothing even close to what Timmy has had to endure and I definitely didn't do it with a good attitude and a smile on my face! Real talk! I realize that this post is getting long so I am not going to add anything more than a simple request that you consider donating to The Children's Tumor Foundation and my Ironman journey. My personal fundraising webpage can be found here. If you have any questions or would like additional information please feel free to contact me via the comments section or on Facebook.

Monday, December 9, 2013

Bad Habits + Good Habits = Breaking Even or Waste of Time?

This weekend while I was running, I started to think about all of the bad habits I have. Trust me, there are a lot! As with most of my thoughts during a run, this turned into an internal debate regarding whether I am breaking even or just wasting my time in regard to my health.

Let's take my run yesterday as an example:

The Good
- Started my morning with warm lemon water, a cup of coffee and a banana.
 (This is HUGE because a lot of times I just don't eat anything!)
- Ran 16.50 miles at a nice strong steady pace.
- Sipped on Vega Electrolyte Hydrator throughout my run. (sooooo delicious!)
- Left my IPod at home so that I would be aware of my surroundings.
- Wore compression socks and my new Asics that don't have a million miles on them.
- Remembered to stretch when my run was finished.

The Bad:
- Took 4 Advil before my run and 2 more about half way through.
- Refused to stop running when my foot was throbbing at mile 7.
(The throbbing did stop after another couple of miles so maybe it was ok that I kept running?)
- Ran in 47 degree rain which wouldn't be a huge deal but I was wearing shorts and a t-shirt. I started off with gloves but lost them somewhere along the way.
- Took a steaming hot shower immediately after my run instead of the ice bath my legs needed.
- Rewarded myself with 12 amazing, warm and fabulous minutes in the tanning bed.
(I know, I know...tanning is so bad for you...blah, blah, blah. You know what though? Tanning beds are warm and that is really all I care about.)
- I didn't eat anything after my run, or really the rest of the day. I had some cranberry seltzer water and a handful of raw cashews but I really don't think that counts.

So what do you think? Did the running, stretching, hydration and pre-run fuel outweigh the Advil, pain, tanning and lack of food? In my defense I will say this, running for me has always been about so much more than simply exercise. I run because quite often it is the only way I am able to handle stress. Running clears my mind, helps me to reevaluate my decisions and reminds me that I am capable of being awesome...or sort of awesomeish anyway! I honestly don't believe that any of us can ever be 100% "healthy" or do everything "the right way" but I would like to believe that all of my efforts are at least helping me to break even. What do you think? I am really curious to hear opinions on this. Let's hear it!

Photo: Sunday Long I don't punch anyone in the face! :)

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Throwback Thursday - Blogger Style

Just a few reasons why my family is awesome:

And you can take awesome to mean anything you want!
So thankful that I get to do life with this bunch of weirdos.

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Wednesday Catch Up

I really can't believe it has already been a week since my last post. I even had five days off from work and still never found time to blog. I want to be better about this but life has just been a little bit weird and I have been stuck in a time warp at DMV. (Which I refuse to even talk about because it just makes me angry.) Not to mention, Charleston has been experiencing some amazing weather and I have literally been outside enjoying this gorgeous spring like weather at ever possible opportunity. No joke, it is 79 degrees and sunny here today and that is the forecast for the rest of the week. This is my kind of winter!! Alright, enough about that because I know you didn't click on my blog in order to read about the weather. Let's get into the good stuff...

Training for Ironman 2014 is still in the base building phase and although I am having a hard time finding a decent pool here in Charleston, I have been running a ton of miles, riding my bike and really focusing on building some strength in the weight room. I am lifting five days a week and practicing yoga the other two days which is just enough to keep me in shape but not burnt out on the gym. I am trying to enjoy my free time and stay healthy before the real training kicks in. I almost had a heart attack yesterday morning while running because I thought I had broken my leg. I woke up and decided to skip the gym to run in my neighborhood instead. (See the weather information above for further explanation regarding why I chose to run outside.) It was 5:00 am and still pretty dark outside when I started running but I have covered so many miles in my neighborhood that I wasn't too concerned about actually seeing where I was going. As I ran along the street in a sleepy, beginning of the day pace, I tripped over the curb and went flying through the air. In my adrenalin induced panic, I attempted to catch myself and somehow twisted backwards, hopped around onto the other foot and caught myself on the side of a mailbox. It was quite the dramatic fall!! Unfortunately, no one was around to witness my graceful (read: ridiculous) fall and I slowly picked myself up and continued running. About three miles down the road, my entire left leg was throbbing and I wanted to just sit down on the curb and cry. Instead, I finished my run as quickly as possible, took a hot shower, ate a bunch of Advil for breakfast and wore compression tights under my skirt to work. (I was looking extremely sexy!) My leg felt better throughout the day but when I got to the gym last night for my second run, I was only able to make it about four miles before the searing pain was back. I did manage to get in a great leg workout and played with kettlebells until my arms were like noodles but I went to bed last night with an ice pack on my leg after taking a ridiculous amount of Advil. I decided to take it easy and x-train today in the hope that I can run tomorrow but wearing 6 inch heels to work probably wasn't the best idea. Plus, I know that as soon as I walk into the gym this evening, I am going to be SO tempted to jump on the treadmill. Please feel free to tell me what a horrible and stupid idea that is!

In other news, I am counting down the days to Xmas (21, in case you were wondering) because I will finally get to see my sisters after more than 4 months. This is literally the longest we have ever been apart and I miss them more than I can even begin to explain. Alright, that's all I have for now because the gym is calling my name and I need to get there before all of this caffeine wears off. I'll be back tomorrow though because I really do love to talk about myself and I am working diligently at making it a habit. Just keeping it real.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

So Many Reasons...

I have a lot to be thankful for. My heart is filled to overflowing. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

"We can only be said to be alive in those moments when our hearts are conscious of our treasures." - Thornton Wilder

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Let's Chat

I promised myself that I would write at least two blog posts this week and although this one is probably cheating due to the lack of creativity, I'm still going to go ahead and give myself a gold star! Winning!

Ok, let's do this - following are five things that are on my mind today:

1.) I just finished reading Wild by Cheryl Strayed for the third time in less than a year. Wild is the story of Cheryl's solo hiking journey across the Pacific Crest Trail that runs from California to Oregon. I want to like this book so badly but even though I found it entertaining enough to read  three times, I just feel unsettled and antsy every single time I read it. The story gets under my skin and I find myself feeling both energized and irritated. I feel like I'm missing something in the story...why am I so annoyed by Cheryl and her journey? Have you read Wild? If so, I would LOVE to hear your thoughts on the book and maybe you can explain why it bothers me so much.

2.) I went to the gym last night after work to do a quick back and biceps workout. My plan was to get in and out as fast as possible because I had already finished a longish run earlier in the day. I really wasn't planning on running but when I walked into the gym, my favorite treadmill was sitting right in front of me, empty and just begging for some attention. (Everyone has a favorite treadmill right?! I'm not a weirdo...or am I?) I decided to just jog a nice easy mile and warm up my legs but ten and a half miles later, I realized that I still had a back and biceps workout to do and pulled myself away from the treadmill. I'm not really sure what happened but it felt great and what can I say except that I really like running.

3.) I think part of the reason my run felt so amazing is because I spent 2 hours at DMV yesterday and after filling out TONS of paperwork, providing every possible document you could imagine and handing over $100, I was told that I was missing information and would have to come back. Here is where it gets frustrating, the piece of information that I need doesn't exist to my knowledge and when I tried to explain that to the lovely DMV employee, she simply shrugged her shoulders and informed me that it wasn't her problem. I then asked if they were going to give me my money back since they weren't going to be able to help me today and I swear that lady giggled! I guess she thought I was being funny but for real, what kind of people take your money, spend two hours making you fill out paperwork and then send you away to locate documents that don't exist?! The only positive thing I can say about the entire situation is that I didn't cry in public so I guess that's something.

4.) A friend of mine just shared this lovely article with me about the physiological effects of completing an Ironman. Although I have previously heard a lot of this information, it definitely serves as a reminder that I should be really nice to my body over the next few months because I am getting ready to put myself though hell. (Real Talk - The whole aging 20 years thing does freak me out a little bit and losing a large portion of my colon sounds miserable...this may have been one of those situations where ignorance is bliss. Oh well, it's too late now! The paperwork has been signed and I am just too stubborn to throw in the towel.)

5.) Last but not least, I have been absolutely obsessed with Ray LaMontagne lately. I'm not sure if it is the gloomy weather we have been having, the memories and contemplation that come with the holiday season, the huge crush I have on a certain boy (which I can't talk about because I don't want to jinx it) or just a shift in my mood but my poor Spotify account is on Ray LaMontagne overload. Go listen to Let It Be Me a few hundred times and then tell me you aren't a fan. It's good stuff my friend!

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

True Story Tuesday

So yesterday was a Monday in every true sense of the word. After an extremely long day at work, a horrible run, a crack in my windshield courtesy of a gravel truck and a headache that made me wish for death, all I wanted was to go home, pull the covers over my head and sleep the day away. Thanks to a stupid commute, a few random errands and my normal evening routine, it was pretty late by the time I finally put on my pajamas and crawled into bed. After setting my alarm and snuggling up in the middle of all my cozy pillows, I started counting sheep and quickly fell into a deep sleep. I'm talking "super deep feel like you are in a coma" type of sleep! Which is why I basically had a heart attack 45 minutes later when both of my fire alarms started to go off and I woke up to an apartment filled with smoke!!! After about 30 seconds of sitting in my bed completely confused, (apparently I am a little bit slow to react in an emergency!!) I quickly jumped up and turned on every light in the apartment. The entire place was smoky and smelled of burning plastic.  I was absolutely terrified to my core in the way only someone who has had their home burn down twice before could understand. Flashbacks of previous fires and the destruction and chaos that comes as a result were flashing through my mind and I was shaking so much that my legs felt useless. Random thoughts were racing through my mind regarding what I needed to grab and I was super annoyed that I was wearing the wrong (read: not exactly decent or super cute) pajamas. If I had known there was a possibility that all of my neighbors and a truck filled with sexy firemen were going to be around, I definitely would have dressed a little better. (Yes, I know this is vain and silly to worry about when you think your apartment is burning down but the title of this post is True Story Tuesday so I'm just being honest.) It only took a couple of minutes for me to realize that the smoke was pouring out of my heating system and that is when I remembered the heating notice from my landlord. Last week, we received a notice in the mail that we were required to set our emergency heating systems in case the temperature dropped, in order to prevent the pipes from freezing. At least I think that was the reason. To be honest, I only skimmed the note and then clicked my heater on. Well, to make this rather long story a bit shorter, my heater decided it was cold enough to come on and apparently it needed a good cleaning, a new air filter or something else heater related that I don't have a clue about. Once I was sure there wasn't an actual fire, I opened all of my windows and doors and tried to clear out the nasty smoke smell from my apartment while also trying to stop shaking and regulate my racing heartbeat.. Which is why I found myself sitting outside on my balcony at 2:30 am with a cup of herbal tea and the latest Victoria's Secret catalog. I may not be able to predict the next "emergency" but I plan on nailing the damsel in distress look when it comes to my pajamas! Priorities people, I'm all about the priorities!!!

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Get It As I Go

"Most of the time we have to get in the arena before we think we are ready. That’s what courage is all about; we can’t wait to go for it until we think we’ve got it. Sometimes we’ve got to go for it and get it as we go." Kristin Armstrong

I have been thinking about this quote for the last couple of days and have repeated it to myself so many times that it could easily become my mantra. I'm not sure why I feel so challenged by this statement but I just can't seem to escape it. I've been going through some really hard stuff lately and if I am being honest, there have been a lot of days when I just feel like giving up. I'm not typically the type of person who gives up when things get hard but everyone has a breaking point. A couple of weeks ago, I was hit hard with a horrible combination of pink eye, flu type, strep throat kind of nastiness and was literally forced to just stop moving and rest for a couple of days. Although I felt like the grim reaper was dancing on my grave, I had a lot of time to think and reevaluate some of the things I was struggling with. After two days of laying on my couch, I did what any normal person would do and signed up for Ironman Florida 2014. That is normal, right?!? Yeah, probably not but there is an explanation for my madness.

In 2008, I crossed the finish line at Ironman and accomplished something that still makes me proud to this very day. Covering 140.6 miles in under 17 hours kind of makes you feel like a badass and changes the way you see yourself. For the first time in my life, I was proud of myself and felt like anything was possible. I knew at that moment, that I was capable of doing extremely hard things. Looking back now, I am so incredibly grateful for that experience because I had no idea that the next few years were going to be more challenging than even Ironman. Most of the people who are reading this blog know the heartbreaking circumstances surrounding my divorce but for those of you who need some background, I have provided a few links to part of the story.

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5

I wish I could say that after Part 5 of that story, everything changed and life became wonderful but unfortunately that was only the beginning. I have spent the last three years struggling to figure out where I belong and what I am supposed to do with myself. This crazy journey has led me through three states, five homes, eight jobs and too many men that were just not right for me. To say I feel unsettled would be an extreme understatement. I never expected that this is where I would be at this stage of my life and sometimes it feels incredibly scary to be facing life and all of its challenges on my own. While I was laying on my couch trying to feel better, I realized that I was becoming a victim in my own life. I need to do something that is bigger than me and that will challenge me to remember what it feels like to accomplish something that seems impossible. On November 1, 2014 I will be lining up on the beach in Panama City, Florida to remind myself that I am stronger than I give myself credit for. When I think about all of the training time I am going to have to put in over the next year, I feel pretty overwhelmed because I know what this is going to require of me but I am determined and possibly just stubborn enough to make it happen. I'm not ready for this and I'm scared to death but "sometimes we've got to go for it and get it as we go."

I hope you will follow me on this journey. I am currently on week 2 of a 12 week base building phase and I am loving every second of training. I'm pretty sure that this training love is only going to last a few more weeks but I am going to bask in it for now and try to drag it out as long as possible. 353 days until race day!!! I got this!

Monday, November 11, 2013

A Little Bit of This and A Little Bit of That

Gee whiz! I can't believe it's already November 11th. Where is time going? I know they say that time flies when you are having fun but I'm not having fun and time is still flying by! I suppose I should clarify that life isn't horrible or anything, it just hasn't been a ton of fun lately. In fact, it's been kind of tough and sad and even overwhelming at times. You didn't come here to read about my sad life though so let's talk about the fun stuff.

First of all, I am officially registered for Florida Ironman 2014 and I am super excited about it. I literally get a huge grin on my face every single time I think about it. I plan on writing a full post about why this race means so much to me at this point in my life but right now I am just letting it all soak in. I know for sure that as soon as training becomes intense, I am going to rethink this entire thing but for now, I am basking in the excitement. I will be blogging about my training and nutrition in preparation for the race but I promise to not talk about it incessantly. (read: you are going to be sick of hearing about this race long before I cross the finish line.)

Other than registering for awesome races, I have been spending a lot of time reading. I have always loved to read but it has been taken to a whole new level recently. In the past week, I finished these five books:


 and I still have a huge stack of books sitting on my nightstand just waiting to be read. Maybe all of this reading makes me a nerd but I prefer to just tell myself that knowledge is power. Quick note for any other book lovers out there - All of these books were excellent with the exception of the Slim Calm Sexy Diet book. Mindy Kaling is hilarious, Kristen Armstrong never fails to make me want to be a better person, The Language of Flowers was unique but lovely and Me Before You was disturbing in the very best way possible.

Let's see...what else do I need to tell you. I have been living on  a lot of gum and coffee lately. Specifically,

 this gum and Starbucks coffee which is definitely not healthy and gives me huge headaches. On the bright side though, you wouldn't believe how easy grocery shopping is. (Mom - I'm mostly kidding about this so please don't freak out. I promise I am eating real food occasionally as well. Promise.)

The weather is starting to change here in Charleston which makes me so incredibly sad but I am trying to look for the silver lining in this whole stupid winter thing and the only thing I have come up with so far is being able to wear tights every day. I LOVE tights. They are so warm and cozy! Plus, let's be honest, they make our legs look amazing! The only thing that sucks is when you have to pee a million times a day and every visit to the bathroom involves a wrestling match with your tights. I swear, when I leave my house in the morning my tights fit perfectly but after pulling them off and on multiple times, they start to sag and droop and twist in ways that just don't seem possible. To be honest, the more I think about it, the less I like tights. Why can't it just be summer all the time? Winter is dumb.

Finally, am I the only one who is disappointed by the new Marshall Mathers LP 2? I want to like it because I have a completely ridiculous and baffling crush on Eminem but I just find myself rolling my eyes at the entire thing...especially that whole stupid Rap God thing. This is probably just another sign that I am getting old. Guess it's time to pull out the Kenny G and Yanni. Sigh.

Good talk guys! Let's do this again soon.

Friday, October 25, 2013

Let's Catch Up

I start every single week off with the promise that I am going to focus and actually write a few blog posts but somehow, the days just fly by and  before I know it another week has passed and I have failed to write anything. In my defense, the weather here in Charleston has been absolutely amazing over the last couple of weeks and so every spare second of my time has been spent outside. I mean for real, who wants to be inside in front of a computer when you can be outside soaking up the sun? Not this girl! I feel like I have a million things to talk about but I am just going to share the first three things that pop into my mind:

1.) I have a brand new niece and even though she is nine hours away from me, I am completely wrapped around her finger. Olivia Charlotte Matheny is just ridiculously adorable and I am extremely happy about this new addition to our family.

 Yesterday I asked my sister and brother-in-law to send me some pics of her and ten minutes later, my sister sent me this:

And my brother-in-law sent me this:

I couldn't help but laugh at their  completely different perspectives on parenthood at this stage! A picture really is worth a thousand words! I am already counting down the days until I get to hang out with all three of the Matheny's and I really can't wait to get in some snuggles with Olivia.
2.) I recently read a statistic that for every hour of television you watch, you will reduce your lifetime by 22 minutes. I don't know if the statistic is true but if it is then I really regret the hours I spent watching Jersey Shore and the entire last season of Lost.
Stupid statisticians, they always have to ruin everything!
3.) I am completely obsessed with the new Larabar ALT bars...especially the Cinnamon Apple Crisp flavor. The bars are vegan, gluten free and delicious.
 I found these bars while wandering the aisles of Target and now I wish I would have bought more. 
Just writing about them is making me hungry. I may need to make an emergency run to Target this evening.
That's all I have for today but I promise that I will be back with more soon...promise! Have a wonderful weekend!

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Holy Disappearing Act, Batman!!!

Well, hey guys! I could give you a million reasons why I haven't posted anything in over a week but if I am being honest, they are all just a bunch of excuses. The truth is that if I really wanted to write a blog, I would find the time. I have been in a bit of a funk for the past few weeks and just needed to take some time to sort out my thoughts and reevaluate a few things in my life. Sometimes I tend to be an over sharer and I am trying to learn to be a bit more discreet and even more importantly, to think before I speak. This is not an easy thing for me to do but I am really trying hard to be better at life and I am willing to put in the work. Now, with all of that being said, I don't want you to think that I no longer have any crazy, erratic, juicy and scandalous things to share with you because I totally do. Oh, I definitely do! So without further adieu, here are five random and completely unrelated things that have been on my mind recently.

1.) I recently read this book:

and was absolutely horrified by some of the statistics that were given. Mika Brzezinski is extremely transparent about her food issues and her struggle to stay thin while living in the public eye. Personally, I had never heard of Mika before reading this book but apparently she is a tv journalist on MSNBC. (In my defense, I don't really watch a lot of tv and when I do, it is usually Parenthood or Jimmy Fallon.) As someone who deals with her own weird issues regarding food and exercise, it was very interesting for me to hear another perspective on these same struggles. Although I don't agree with everything in this book, I did enjoy reading it and using it as a way to examine my own thought process regarding this subject. I'm not sure I would recommend this book but I did find it interesting at times and it is definitely thought provoking.
2.) Short Man's Syndrome is a VERY real thing and after seeing it live and in the flesh, I have a new rule for myself regarding men: If I cannot wear high heels and still be shorter than them, they are officially undateable! (And yes, undateable is totally a word despite what spell check seems to think!)
In case you don't have a clue what I'm talking about, see the definition below.
Short Man's Syndrome:
An angry male of below average height who feels it necessary to act out in an attempt to gain respect and recognition from others and compensate for his abnormally short stature. 
In my continued effort to work on being discreet, I am going to wrap up this topic now. (but if you want details, you can totally send me a message on Facebook or give me a call...what can I say, I'm a work in progress and I kind of like to gossip.)
3.)  My gorgeous sister, Melissa, is going to have a baby any day minute second now and I am so excited to meet her little girl. I have been so blessed to be an aunt to the four coolest kids ever and I can't wait to add another one to the mix. My brother and sisters are really pretty amazing at making adorable little humans. I'm super impressed!
4.) Last night while walking through the park in my neighborhood, a man walked up to me and told me that he lost his dog and was trying to find him before the sun went down. It was getting pretty late and I felt really bad for the guy, so I spent 30 minutes wandering around the trails in the park trying to help him find his dog. After a solid half hour of yelling the dogs name and having no luck, this guy turned to me and said, "I didn't really lose my dog. In fact, I don't even have a dog. I just wanted to talk to you and was hoping to get your number." I cannot even begin to tell you how angry I was. Why are guys so stupid?! I mean for real, all he had to do was walk up and say hi. Why did he feel the need to lie to me? And people wonder why I have trust issues!!!
5.) It's official - This is going to happen!
Charleston Marathon
Anyone want to join me? It's going to be a great time! It's hard to beat running through Charleston. I will even take you out to Folly Beach after the run for an au naturel "ice bath." Think about it and get back to me.
Alright, that's all I've got for today but I promise to be back soon...well, soonish. Let's just see how this whole "being in a funk" thing plays out.